...but in this I was wrong, at least to some degree. All this time I've thought that once I finally transferred to a four-year college I'd feel like I belonged, that I'd feel like I was a part of the school and would proudly cheer for "my team."
Oddly enough, the football games I'd been looking forward to going to so much really haven't been that big of a deal. Screaming for this team just doesn't mean what I thought it would. I don't have a desire to dress in school colors or to shout "To The Top!" after every first down, it's the weirdest thing! Why don't I feel like an "Eagle?" Why don't I care about this school as much as I'd always thought I would, as much as I'd been looking forward to?
Walking across campus this afternoon, the Lord showed me that what I'd been hoping to find in this school was an identity. All of this time I've been looking for something about this school that defines me, for something that says, "This is IT!" He showed me that it's too late for that - I've already found my identity, and it's in Jesus Christ. Cheering for the football team seems pointless compared to the relationships that could be developed with all of the lost people here. This school is not my identity; instead, it is the mission field the Lord has placed me in to do His work and to build community.
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| This is my GEWW (Golden Eagle Welcome Week) Group... praying that the Lord will keep working in their hearts and will allow me to be His witness to them! |
In Galatians 2:20, Paul writes:
"I have been crucified with Christ; it is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me; and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave Himself for me."
The Lord is my strength and my song, He is my Rock and my refuge in times of trouble. Each day the Spirit is teaching me to live in Him instead of in the flesh. This is a journey, not a destination, but thank the Lord that He is patient and that He will never leave.
"Further Up and Further In."
